I'm still here!
Today, April 25, 2017 marks the day I turn 45! Yes, I said 45. I know. I know. I don't look it! Ha! In fact, if you look closely, you will see lots of "glitter" in my hair, a few lines around my eyes and across my forehead, and a few age spots here and there. I have now entered that phase of life where I have to reach for some assistance when it comes to reading small print and am constantly pushing my boys' papers and objects out of my face and closer to my knees for some clarity. I've heard many say things like "the older I get birthday's don't matter" or "it's just another day". You are NEVER going to hear me say that! Every year is a celebration of LIFE for me and I am so happy to have made it to another year.
I'm not going to go into my whole story just yet, I will soon, but I will say this being diagnosed with breast cancer at the age of 27 changed my perspective on many things, especially birthday's! Just recently, Brody, my 10 year old son, and I were discussing all of the scars on my body. In fact when I was asked to write down all the surgeries I have had in my life back in November for yet another surgery, a complete hysterectomy (another blog for another day), I was surprised at how long the list was! As Brody pointed out each scar, I told the story of survival! It has been said that I must look like Frankenstein with all the scars I have (thankfully hidden mostly from public view). People can say the "kindest" things! Definitely, tongue in cheek there people! BUT, each scar represents LIFE and for every single moment of that, I am forever grateful!
I'm so glad that I serve the one true living God who has seen me through every single diagnosis, surgery, life changing moment. He has truly been the God of the hill's and valley's! I have learned the valuable lesson that life is fleeting! So what do I endeavor to do, live every moment to the fullest. Yes, sometimes, okay, MANY times, my house may suffer because I would rather be outside playing with my boys, planting flowers, breathing deeply of crisp spring air than inside trudging away at folding clothes, moping floors and dusting furniture. I am not condoning a messy house (just the other day I banished myself to my boys' room until things were much more presentable) but I do, at times, choose being in the moment with my two miracles, over a house that is in perfect order.
So today is not just a day to me. It is a celebration of 21 years of marriage, 10 years mommy to an amazing boy and 6 years mommy to another amazing boy. It represents at least twice when my life hung in the balance and I prayed God would grant me more days to tell of His faithfulness. It is a celebration of every time I thought life was just too hard to bear and every time that I thought I would explode because life couldn't be any better. Both spectrums I have learned are extreme and most days are just made up of the steadiness of good and bad and a faithful God seeing me through it all. So yes, I celebrate my birthday and proudly proclaim that I am one year older! I do not know what tomorrow may hold but I KNOW God will be there and I will proclaim His faithfulness all of my days! Today I celebrate LIFE!
I'm not going to go into my whole story just yet, I will soon, but I will say this being diagnosed with breast cancer at the age of 27 changed my perspective on many things, especially birthday's! Just recently, Brody, my 10 year old son, and I were discussing all of the scars on my body. In fact when I was asked to write down all the surgeries I have had in my life back in November for yet another surgery, a complete hysterectomy (another blog for another day), I was surprised at how long the list was! As Brody pointed out each scar, I told the story of survival! It has been said that I must look like Frankenstein with all the scars I have (thankfully hidden mostly from public view). People can say the "kindest" things! Definitely, tongue in cheek there people! BUT, each scar represents LIFE and for every single moment of that, I am forever grateful!
I'm so glad that I serve the one true living God who has seen me through every single diagnosis, surgery, life changing moment. He has truly been the God of the hill's and valley's! I have learned the valuable lesson that life is fleeting! So what do I endeavor to do, live every moment to the fullest. Yes, sometimes, okay, MANY times, my house may suffer because I would rather be outside playing with my boys, planting flowers, breathing deeply of crisp spring air than inside trudging away at folding clothes, moping floors and dusting furniture. I am not condoning a messy house (just the other day I banished myself to my boys' room until things were much more presentable) but I do, at times, choose being in the moment with my two miracles, over a house that is in perfect order.
So today is not just a day to me. It is a celebration of 21 years of marriage, 10 years mommy to an amazing boy and 6 years mommy to another amazing boy. It represents at least twice when my life hung in the balance and I prayed God would grant me more days to tell of His faithfulness. It is a celebration of every time I thought life was just too hard to bear and every time that I thought I would explode because life couldn't be any better. Both spectrums I have learned are extreme and most days are just made up of the steadiness of good and bad and a faithful God seeing me through it all. So yes, I celebrate my birthday and proudly proclaim that I am one year older! I do not know what tomorrow may hold but I KNOW God will be there and I will proclaim His faithfulness all of my days! Today I celebrate LIFE!
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