Sit down, put your hands on the keyboard, and begin!

In the past few weeks, I have been compelled to write.  I have wrestled with the what, where, when, how, who, blah, blah, blah.  Will anyone read it? Will anyone actually care?  All of the questions swirling around in my people pleaser mind.  Oh, if you are a people pleaser, you will totally get that.  

But this is different. 

It's not about pleasing anyone or anything, it is about pleasing HIM!  My husband, family, and friends have often encouraged me to write, but I have been hesitant. Why? You might ask.  Well, all of those questions that I just mentioned and all of the what if's have stopped me BUT this time, I am feeling compelled by something within that transcends all of humanity.  

I have been praying for direction.  Praying for the way.  Praying for a sign from heaven. In all truth, probably praying to try to talk God out of it.  hehe  I'm nothing.  I'm nobody. I'm just....me.  I'm still that little girl inside that has a hard time believing that she is actually 46.  What?! 46.  Wow, that actually sounds like I'm an adult.  haha  Okay, I got distracted there....on with the I'ms.  I'm nothing. I'm nobody....but my heart is beating to a different drum than my head.  My soul is crying out to be voiced.  My mind is telling me to stop thinking so much about it and to just sit down. Put my hands on the keyboard and begin.....so this is me beginning.  

I don't know where this journey is going to take me or you, my reader, if there are any.  Ugh!  See there I go again! The doubt!  

All I know is that after praying  and seeking God for direction, He spoke to me through a dear soul this week and said, "Whatever it is that you are wrestling with, just do it!  God is saying go for it!  Take that leap!  You have a voice that needs to be heard!"  Oh, my goodness!  I stood there astounded.  Are any of you ever shocked when God actually talks back in an audible way?!  Tears burned my eyes and my heart lept within me.  "Yes, Sir."  That's all I could say.  

Here I am, God!  Sitting, typing and listening! Let's go!